Recently, my dear friend and mentor sent me a poem and it goes something like this...
Into the night as we make our weary way, we know not where
And just when the night becomes its darkest and we cannot see our path,
Just then the angels rush in, their hands full of stars
I have had angels, both earthly and not, overwhelm my heart and life with stars over the last eleven months. If you are reading this and are one of my people, then you are one of those angels. I have dealt with the most severe heart ache and will continue to forever, but when so much light and love overwhelms me on a daily basis, the pain eases just enough for me to be able to enjoy this beautiful struggle we call life.
When I think about my mom, sometimes the pain is so deep that I start to lose my breath or balance, but recently I've tried to focus on where she is and the peace she is totally absorbed in, and it helps. I imagine heaven--which I believe in with every ounce of my being--to be the most beautiful and perfect place...and I know everyone has their own idea of what it's like, but mine is something like this...
....full of purposeful days and starry nights.... sunlight in the summers and rain--but the peaceful kind--in the spring. Brisk and falling leaves in every hue in the fall and bright white snow that energizes you in the winter. At the base of the grand pine-covered mountains are clear and untroubled turquoise lakes, where you can throw rocks or swim or lay on the dock. Then there are vast fields to run and play in, and glittering leaves that lead you up trails to find honest waterfalls. The sand on the beach sparkles, while the ocean changes its mind between shimmering shades of jade and indigo. And the people.....the people are at peace. The conversations and interactions that take place are authentic and everyone is full of brilliant ability, wisdom, and joy...
And this is where my beautiful and vibrant mother is....her healthiest and happiest self. This is where she's watching out for me and my family....where she is sending us angels with their hands full of stars... until it is our time to join her.
I love you momma, forever and ever. I miss you every single second.
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Into the night as we make our weary way, we know not where
And just when the night becomes its darkest and we cannot see our path,
Just then the angels rush in, their hands full of stars
I have had angels, both earthly and not, overwhelm my heart and life with stars over the last eleven months. If you are reading this and are one of my people, then you are one of those angels. I have dealt with the most severe heart ache and will continue to forever, but when so much light and love overwhelms me on a daily basis, the pain eases just enough for me to be able to enjoy this beautiful struggle we call life.
When I think about my mom, sometimes the pain is so deep that I start to lose my breath or balance, but recently I've tried to focus on where she is and the peace she is totally absorbed in, and it helps. I imagine heaven--which I believe in with every ounce of my being--to be the most beautiful and perfect place...and I know everyone has their own idea of what it's like, but mine is something like this...
....full of purposeful days and starry nights.... sunlight in the summers and rain--but the peaceful kind--in the spring. Brisk and falling leaves in every hue in the fall and bright white snow that energizes you in the winter. At the base of the grand pine-covered mountains are clear and untroubled turquoise lakes, where you can throw rocks or swim or lay on the dock. Then there are vast fields to run and play in, and glittering leaves that lead you up trails to find honest waterfalls. The sand on the beach sparkles, while the ocean changes its mind between shimmering shades of jade and indigo. And the people.....the people are at peace. The conversations and interactions that take place are authentic and everyone is full of brilliant ability, wisdom, and joy...
And this is where my beautiful and vibrant mother is....her healthiest and happiest self. This is where she's watching out for me and my family....where she is sending us angels with their hands full of stars... until it is our time to join her.
I love you momma, forever and ever. I miss you every single second.
